Today is my first actual blogging of Insanity and Happiness. My Fiance's son will be 15 in May and is already looking for a vehicle. At first he was only wanting to get a Mustang or a Camaro, but thankfully we ended up with a snow storm that pro
duced about 8 inches of snow. Michael needed to go over to his Grandma and Grandpa's house to shovel their walk and dri
veway, so he asked if Gary wanted to go with him. Fortunately enough he wanted to go. When they got home, Michael was nice enough to inform me that Gary decided he didn't want a car, that he wanted a truck. I was so happy to hear this. Well today I had my last prenatal appointment and everything looked good, so now I get to go back to work. I had been suffering from mood swings and depression since I had gotten pregnant with Shyanne and now that I am nolonger pregnant, they have gotten worse. I used to smoke cigarettes and quit because I had gotten pregnant. Now that I am nolon
ger pregnant, I still have the cravings and they are worse now then they were while being pregnant. Anyway, I leave my Doctors appointment and I get a text from Michael asking me to call him. So I call and he tells me that he has found a truck for Gary, but we have to go to West Point to get it. So of course we go and pick up the truck.
The thing that set me emotions into a tailspin was the fact that I had to drive home with Michaels Step-brother. All he does is talk, and all I wanted was piece
and quiet on the way back. Unfortunately for me, I did not get my piece and quiet, and it made for a very long hour and a half. My moment of insanity arrived when I had finally gotten home, sat on the couch, and just started crying. I have Jordan, Gary, and Michael all staring at me like a I something from another planet. Michael realized what was going on and was trying to console me. I had to make myself realize that even though Gary is not my "son", I love him as my own, and he was getting older. Soon he would be dating and off to college before I knew it. Then Jordan would be right behind him and it was as though my heart was breaking. Michael took our children over to his mothers and then took me out for some one on one time, which was greatly appreciated. My moments of happiness today are quite obvious... Gary just got his FIRST vehicle, I have been released to go back to work, and Michael and I had time to ourselves. It has definitely been a day with its ups an
d downs, but I will be more then happy to have more days like this, as long as everyone has arrived home safely and we are all together. I have uploaded a few photos of my first solo wedding as a photographer. The bride is the daughter of one of my closest friends and it was my honor to do this for her.
“Happiness is not having what you want. It is wanting what you have” — Unknown
duced about 8 inches of snow. Michael needed to go over to his Grandma and Grandpa's house to shovel their walk and dri
veway, so he asked if Gary wanted to go with him. Fortunately enough he wanted to go. When they got home, Michael was nice enough to inform me that Gary decided he didn't want a car, that he wanted a truck. I was so happy to hear this. Well today I had my last prenatal appointment and everything looked good, so now I get to go back to work. I had been suffering from mood swings and depression since I had gotten pregnant with Shyanne and now that I am nolonger pregnant, they have gotten worse. I used to smoke cigarettes and quit because I had gotten pregnant. Now that I am nolon
ger pregnant, I still have the cravings and they are worse now then they were while being pregnant. Anyway, I leave my Doctors appointment and I get a text from Michael asking me to call him. So I call and he tells me that he has found a truck for Gary, but we have to go to West Point to get it. So of course we go and pick up the truck.The thing that set me emotions into a tailspin was the fact that I had to drive home with Michaels Step-brother. All he does is talk, and all I wanted was piece
and quiet on the way back. Unfortunately for me, I did not get my piece and quiet, and it made for a very long hour and a half. My moment of insanity arrived when I had finally gotten home, sat on the couch, and just started crying. I have Jordan, Gary, and Michael all staring at me like a I something from another planet. Michael realized what was going on and was trying to console me. I had to make myself realize that even though Gary is not my "son", I love him as my own, and he was getting older. Soon he would be dating and off to college before I knew it. Then Jordan would be right behind him and it was as though my heart was breaking. Michael took our children over to his mothers and then took me out for some one on one time, which was greatly appreciated. My moments of happiness today are quite obvious... Gary just got his FIRST vehicle, I have been released to go back to work, and Michael and I had time to ourselves. It has definitely been a day with its ups an
d downs, but I will be more then happy to have more days like this, as long as everyone has arrived home safely and we are all together. I have uploaded a few photos of my first solo wedding as a photographer. The bride is the daughter of one of my closest friends and it was my honor to do this for her.“Happiness is not having what you want. It is wanting what you have” — Unknown
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